Sunday, December 21, 2008
Saturday, December 06, 2008
oops- missed November- Halloween and fall!
Bishops, Homecoming dance for Aly at Whitney High School... and my surgery on 10/17/08
No more surgery-and the holidays are officially here!
Well, it goes like this- 10 surguries in 18 months... I am oficially done and trying to figure out wher to go from here. What does one do when we are faced with our own mortality- and then are well...
I am confused? I missed out on Coltons first year of his life- and it makes me mad- makes me sad- My body is So tired- yet my mind is going 100 miles per hour.
Its been a LONG 10 years!
4 years since the accident where Thomas died- with me at the wheel
10 years since I gave birth to my first son- my angel Zack
6 years since I got married- and 2 beautiful sons later... I am tired!
I am blessed- and confused.
who am I now without having babies, being pregnant, being sick...
I love my job- love my kids, love my family, and am so grateful to alive- I just wish at times that I had not experienced so much...
The economy is in the tank- and I am trying to find my way....
As we prepare for Christmas( I do not remember last years holidays- none of them) I am trying to grasp what the season is all about- and do different...everything is different- why am I so angry!
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)